busy-ness

It’s funny because it seems like the second you learn to balance life as it exists, it all changes. And suddenly, you’re reconfiguring it all again. I suppose the best (and worst) part is doing that causes constant self reflection for me. Sometimes that’s awesome, but sometimes it’s not that great. Past the demons that I wrote about a couple of weeks ago are just, well, what I would call flaws. Maybe weaknesses. And reconfiguring time again has helped those to show.

Often it seems that it all comes back to time, and I guess that makes sense. What you do with it, who you spend it with all tells about your interests and priorities.

I’ve been home from one training for about a week and a half–probably not even that long–and I’m off again today. I think I’d just like to sit in my home. Yet, the solution in my mind says otherwise. I just thought to myself, “as soon as I get home from this, I need to head out to the desert.” I suppose that would cure some ills, but not the ones that stem from lack of care and attention to my home.

The best part, though, is that I finally feel like I’ve reached a point where there is limitless time to do everything I want to do. I guess all that leaves for me to figure out is the discipline.

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